|Grandma got G a baby so he can practice his mad skills as a big brother. |
Here he is taking him for a ride on his truck
|I thought G might be phasing out his morning nap |
so I let him skip it, this is what happened 1.5 hours
before his usual afternoon naptime...love!!!
|Grandma and Grandpa also decided to spoil G |
rotten (as they should!) and got him a swing and slide
|Mommy's first time holding Madden|
|Mommy, daddy and Madden|
He had to go back to work Friday, 7/13. He's firefighter and works 2 days on, 2 off, 2 on, 2 off, 2 on and then 8 off. So while it was hard for him to go back, his schedule is awesome. Buuuut, on his last two days at work (before his 8-days off,) he was called to a fire about 3 hours north of us. He was supposed to be home Thursday, 7/19 and didn't get home until Saturday, 7/21. It sucked have to scramble around for a sitter for G and a ride to the hospital but I'm sure I'll forget all about it when I see the paycheck with 52 hours of overtime on it!
Hmm, I'll have to save all the deep stuff for it's own post. My head is swarming with thoughts and most of them are not pleasant. I'm an emotional mess. Staying busy keeps me from being a total blubbering mess but it also means that I haven't really processed much. I'm pumping breast milk for M and its nearly a disaster. In a 24 hour period, I pump enough for him to have in ONE feeding. It's so insanely discouraging. I'm so disappointed in my body. Getting pregnant was not easy (and the one time it was, I still miscarried,) I can't even manage to stay pregnant and now I can't even feed my baby. I hadn't intended to fight with the breast pump this much (when I assumed I'd be having a full-term baby) but this is all I can do for our son. I have to do this for me. It's the only thing that really makes me M's mommy right now. I feel like I have a lot of mourning to do but no time to do it. One day at a time though.
In much better news, THE BESTY IS COMING!!! Obviously, she was planning a trip closer to my due date but then things went all nutso and she wasn't sure she'd be able to come any sooner. Since she's amazing, she worked it out and she and my two nephs will be here for a little over two weeks. She's coming out in just nine days! I need her and I'm so glad she's coming.
So that's the current haps. I created a page on Facebook for Madden, "Madden's Journey Home." Feel free to check it out, look at all his pics and follow along as I post daily updates of his milestones.