In lieu of TVT...
After letting my rant settle, I'm feeling like I need to clarify my last post.
First, I really just needed to vent my initial thoughts about Christmas. Now that I'm looking back, I might've had some unrealistic expectations.
Not everything can be all about me or my (perfect) child!
(I still am very annoyed that bro's gf's sister's family came to our family Christmas breakfast though.)
Next, I am beyond grateful that I was able to celebrate Christmas with my son. My son!!! How amazing is that?!?!
I imagine, to some of you still in the deep trenches of IF, you read my post and thought "What a spoiled brat? At least you have a child to celebrate with!!!"
And, you're right! That thought is not lost on me!
I really just needed to vent about the annoyingness and frustrations I had.
Overall, G made out like a bandit (and our living room shows it!) and the hubs and I even scored some awesome gifts...
Next year, I will make Christmas what I want it to be. This year I decided not to celebrate with just the three of us. Looking back, I wish I had. Mostly because this may (fingers crossed) be the only year that it is just the three of us!
The good news is, I'm really looking forward to Christmas next year! Never thought I'd say that. I'm going to take it easy on the gifts. Christmas isn't about the gifts anyway. I'm going to decorate and maybe (maybe!) even have a real tree. I'm going to stash all the present and bring them out Christmas eve while G sleeps. I hope to see excitement and awe on his little face when he sees all the gifts.
Next year will be different.
Anyway, I just wanted to make sure that those of you that read my post got the full story and not just the rant.
*Today is my second monitoring appointment for FET. I've been on oral estrogen, twice daily, since Saturday. I think we're hoping to see my lining thickening up nicely. After the initial u/s, we'll be doing the saline u/s. Wish me luck!*
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