When I walk into the room, he lights up! His smile takes over his entire face and my heart melts...once again!
I love being home with him everyday!!! I can't imagine missing anything. Although I do feel like being home with him everyday is a gift, it is a huge sacrifice. We are not independently wealthy. We are just able to live off 1/3 of our usual income so that I can stay home.
|Like father, like son|
|Chewing on his hands!|
(His shirt says "Awesome Like Mommy!)
I hate being away from him but I need some time for myself. I dream of going to dessert with my girlfriends once a month. When it's here, I dread going. I hate getting home when he's in bed. I fully enjoy my time away but sometimes it hurts, in the pit of my stomach, to be gone.
|My sweet two month old |
baby boy in his bassinet
where he slept until last week
Nobody really talks about how rough that first six weeks after having a baby really is. I'll be the first to admit, I had it much harder than many others but I still feel that I was not adequately warned. My body ached-- head to toe-- for at least three months. My nether regions are only now just beginning to feel normal (or at least their new normal, which is plenty good considering what they endured.) My b00bs took on their own zip code, and I'm all about a huge rack, but even I was overwhelmed. And now...let's not even talk about what they look like now. Ugh!
|Crappy cell phone pic of us in|
the mirror. He was in the Mo.by to
help me vacuum and mop.
I told you I hold him ALL the time.
All this said, I wouldn't change one second of it. I have the most amazing gift. Gavin is everything I had hoped he'd be, and even more. Of course, having him, just makes me want more! I can't wait to be pregnant again and have another perfect baby. I can only hope to receive another blessing.
Speaking of, we made an appointment with the RE to discuss doing a FET. Not sure when we'll turn that corner but I need to know what we're up against and then decide.