Things I didn’t know…

There are quite a few things I’m learning now that I’m pregnant. (Let me specify before you read, I am not complaining. I am rejoicing…even in the ickiness!)

First, (TMI ALERT!!!) the discharge. I don’t think anyone ever mentioned this to me. I won’t get too descriptive but mainly, it’s a constant ‘flow’ of thick fluid, nothing too terribly funky but its there…constantly. Because of said discharge, one should NOT wear dark pink or red undies during early pregnancy. The moisture on the undies looks oddly like blood and can send panic through your veins.

Second, the cramps. I have heard some women talk about the early pregnancy cramps but I had no idea how intense and similar to AF cramps they are. It is actually VERY cruel! Before beta, I just knew it meant AF was imminent. Once beta came back positive, I just knew it meant impending disaster. Now, I think it just means that my ute is growing. In any case, it is rather uncomfy and can be very disturbing.

Third, I’m worthless. I have always been rather lazy but this newfound exhaustion leaves me seriously worthless. I used to have an inner voice that reminded me that I needed to do things. I knew that I should do laundry or clean the bathroom. Now, I am twice (possibly three times) as lazy and no longer have the inner voice encouraging me to do something. The laundry has been stacking up for weeks. Yep, weeks! Every now and then the hubs does a load or two and that’s been keeping us afloat. I won’t even describe the filth that our bathroom is currently seeing.

Fourth, food just isn’t the same. Absolutely nothing tastes right. Even the things I crave, just don’t satisfy me. I’ll eat them and then still feel empty because it just didn’t hit ‘the spot.’ I do eat and luckily, have not vomited (other than the early morning dry heaves) but it is rather disappointing.

Fifth, no lovin’! This is specifically because of IVF (I think.) Prior to ER, we weren’t allowed to get down past June 18th. After ER and ET, I was on ‘vaginal rest’ until beta. At beta, I was told that ‘rest’ would continue until the first ultrasound. At the first u/s, I was told to wait until the next u/s. That will be July 29th, almost six weeks later! I had no idea the kind of lockdown we would endure. I’m still not sure I’m ready for any action because I’m nervous to ruin anything (I know, I’m one of the crazy early pregnant women you read about.) Am I the only IVF’er that didn’t know about this? My poor husband didn’t know either.

I constantly say “I’ll take it!” I’ll take the icky discharge, cramps, exhaustion, constant nausea and lack of relations any day! I’M PREGNANT!!! It’s all worth it and I truly feel blessed!!!

One...

I don't have any of the pics scanned yet but we had our very first ultrasound last week and we saw one perfect little baby with a heartbeat...124 bpm!!! Baby was measuring right on schedule at 3.7 mm. My tiny little lentil!!!

Our next ultrasound is this coming Thursday.

I'm obsessed!!!

I haven't been blogging lately for a few reasons. One of the main reasons is that I'm obsessed with taking pregnancy tests. It's hard to find time to blog when I'm busy pee'ing in a cup and dipping multiple sticks in it. Sometimes, more than once a day.

Luckily, all the results are the same. Still BFP!!! The hubs asks me why I keep doing it. Do I not believe it? Honestly, I think after two long years TTC, I just like to see that second pink line. I like to see if show up quicker each time, I like to see it get darker each time and I like to see the second line consistently. It's a long awaited joy!

Here's proof of my obsession...

I started taking them as early as 7/1/10 and there have only been three days (the past three) that I haven't tested. And I can guarantee, these will NOT be the last of the tests I will be taking!

I'm stewing over the upcoming u/s on Thursday. I'm dying to see a heartbeat and see how many sacs there are. I actually think I want to nap until Thursday and then wake up in time for the u/s. Wouldn't that be nice?!

Beta #2

I got the beta call yesterday and forgot to post it...sorry!

My beta on Tuesday was 143 so I was hoping to see that double (something around 286ish.) My beta yesterday was 442!!! So freaking awesome!!!

Everyone's been asking...the high number could mean twins but its not definitive until the first ultrasound. That's scheduled for 7/22.

So, guess what??? It's another two week wait! UGH!!! I wonder if life will stop being measured in two week increments one day. LOL!

So far, I don't really feel any different. I have waves of nausea and exhaustion but nothing too severe. My progesterone and estrogen levels are great so I haven't had to adjust the PIO shots or the Est.race. PIO is going well...I guess. I have some nasty knots and bruises so the shots are getting more uncomfortable. All totally worth it in my book!

Cost

2 years TTC = Lots of heartache

5 IUI's = Free (thank the Lord for insurance!)

Fertility Monitor and numerous test stick = $190

IVF = $12,150

Meds = $45 (more than $2,000 without my insurance)

Hormonal snacks = Roughly $50

7 embryos = A few nasty bruises

Pregnancy tests = At least $60

 = PRICELESS!!!

Still waiting for beta results at the moment but I'll be sure to post as soon as I get the call. Please cross your fingers and say some prayers for a VERY high number!!!

*** Got the beta call...143!!!!!!!***