Hold me back...

from the evil pee sticks!!! I just can't help it.

The logical side of me knows that 6dp3dt is just too early too see anything but it doesn't stop me from over analyzing each one of those strips each morning. The TORTURE!!!

I'm going to try my hardest to stay away but I'm weak. I do this every time. I just so desperately want to see the second line.

I just realized I never showed you who it is that I'm hoping to meet in nine months.

Meet Oreo and Cheeto...

Pretty darn perfect if I do say so myself. Keep up the prayers please. Prayers for my sanity as well.

Also, here's the horrible bruise from the shot that went wrong...

And this is nearly two weeks after the fact. Yowza!!!

Alright, that's all for now. I'm going to work on getting things packed up for my fun-filled distraction weekend.

Still here...

I don't have anything new to post. I'm here, 4dp3dt, wondering if those two beautifully perfect embies are sticking around for the long haul. Just seven more days to beta.

Luckily, this week and weekend will be crazy busy and beta will be here before I know it. The hubs and I talked about not wanting to know the results. I only want to know good results. If they're bad, I just want to wake up for the next IVF. I can't even fathom.

I guess its best to stay focused on the positive. That's all I can do at the moment. I just hope these embryos know how much I love them already. I've been telling them daily how fun we are, and how loving we are, and how much we want to meet them. I hope they want to meet us too!

Hopefully my embies have made themselves at home.

I'm PUPO!!!

I'm a day late on the ET update...sorry!

Stopping by from IComLeavWe? Check out my last few posts...

ET went AWESOME!!! After the uncomfortable ER on Monday, I was worried about the ET but, once again, there was no point! There was zero discomfort, even with a full bladder.

We transferred two 8-celled, grade A+ embryos!!! The RE said they were A+ because they were compacting (the cells were communicating with each other, or something) and that was excellent!

We froze two more 8-celled embryos and a 6-cell. We have two 4-cell embryos that we're giving some extra time to see if they can make it to freeze.

We have the most beautiful picture of our embabies that I will be sure to post as soon as I can scan it. They're perfect!!!

Bed rest is going great! My 32-week pregnant bestie came to hang with me yesterday. The hubs ended up taking care of both of us because he's so wonderful! Her and I made sure to lay really close in bed so that I could "soak up some of her success" and let the embabies know that they're going to have a "cousin" so they should definitely stick around. LOL!

We can't help but feel extremely encouraged by the quality of the embryos that we transferred but I know that that is a slippery slope. Plenty of perfect embryos don't make it. We're trying to stay positive but realistic. I love them already and I really hope to see BOTH of them next year, in person!

Thank you all so much for your prayers and support! You, even those I'm just meeting in ICLW this week, are awesome!!!

We have embryos!!!

We have SEVEN embryos!!! I cried. No, I lost it!!! I am so grateful! I was so worried there wouldn't be any eggs, I was worried that none of them would be mature, I worried none would fertilize...all of that for nothing.

Out of the 12 eggs retrieved, nine were mature, all nine were ICSI'd and of that nine, we have seven embryos!

ET is scheduled for Thursday, 6/24 at 8:30am. I won't even bother mentioning all my worries for ET. Its pointless.

God is so good!

ER Update

First, I found my thumb drive! It was in the computer at work.

Second, ER went great! Out of the 14 follicles I had on Friday, the doctor got 12 eggs. Unfortunately, I don't know anything else right now. We were supposed to get our fertilization report 2.5 hours ago. I'm sure our names and info are written on a piece of paper that is sitting on a the nurse's desk waiting for her to have an extra moment to make the call. I'm being zen about it though. The hubs said we'll call if we don't hear anything in 2.5 more hours.

I was a little surprised at how sore I was after ER. Everyone had told me that it was easy and minimally uncomfortable. But I'm VERY sore! After waking up, I had some insane cramps. Tylenol minimizes them. Sitting up hurts, standing up straight hurts, laying on my sides hurts, and lets not even talk about laughing, sneezing, or coughing... It is much better today than yesterday though. Now, I know that I'm no wuss. I have a decent pain threshold. I think all of you IVF'ers have been lying about ER pain. That's the only explanation. LOL! I judge the pain by whether or not I'd do it again. I would do this again although I hope I don't have to. I am definitely surviving just fine though. I'm letting the hubs take care of me and its nice!

The hubs gave me my first PIO shot last night. I have dreaded these even before we started IVF. It wasn't so bad. It figures that the things I'm not worried about (ER) are the painful things and the things that I dread (PIO shots) turn out to be fine. I'm going to dread everything from here on. LOL! I can't believe how thick that PIO is. I wanted to draw it up into the syringe to see and WOW!!! That's crazy! The hubs said injecting was just as fun. I swear that needle was in my booty for a full minute as he forced the oil out. Freaks me out thinking about it, so I won't.

I'll be keeping you posted as soon as I get the fert report. Keep those fingers crossed and prayers said!

IComLeavWe - June 2010

I decided to post my IComLeavWe post a little early. Tomorrow morning, Monday 6/21, is retrieval time for me!!! I can't believe this is here. How can this still not feel real?!?!

I had a great post written up and saved on my thumb drive but it appears that my thumb drive had better plans today. I can't find that thing anywhere. I vaguely remember my purse tipping over but I can't remember where. I'm just hoping I left it in the computer at work. Oh man, I hope its at work. Not sure where else it could be. Yikes! Unfortunately, I won't be at work tomorrow so this is the post you'll get for now.

If this is the first time you're stopping by Mis(sed)conception, welcome! Here are two posts that you should take a peak at... a few things about me from my first IComLeavWe post and the second post was from just a few weeks ago when I came out of the bloggy closet. We are currently in the process of our first (and hopefully ONLY) IVF! We have been TTC since August 2008 and are undiagnosed. We've had five IUIs since August 2009, three Clo.mid cycles and two injectable cycles. Check my sidebar for some more details. Our fingers are crossed for this IVF!

Follow me on Twit.ter (@misdconception) for my ER update tomorrow and fertilization report later in the week. Otherwise, I hope to be posting later in the day or Tuesday.

I would appreciate prayers and positive thoughts for some healthy, mature eggs at the retrieval and a great sample from the hubs!

I look forward to meeting all of you this week!

Follie Checkup

Yesterday’s follie check up went awesome! We (me and my ovaries) have 16 follies!!! 9 on the right: 2-6mm, 7mm, 8mm, 10mm, 2-10.5mm, and 2-11mm. 7 on the left: 7mm, 2-9mm, 9.5mm, 2-10mm, and 12mm. My next check up is Thursday. We’ll probably need another 4-5 days of stims and hopefully trigger this weeked for ER on Monday/Tuesday. Woooo hoooooo!!!

Last night I had the shot that went wrong! Monday nights my dad does my shots since the hubs works a 24-hour shift. My dad is a diabetic so I’m pretty comfy with him doing them…usually! I really dread my Brav.elle and Men.opur shots. They’re just uncomfy. Granted, it’s quick and I do survive, but I still don’t look forward to them. Last night was the night for shots on the right side. If you read my post from yesterday, you saw the pics of my bruises. Well, those are on the right side.

I decided to have my dad do my shots a little higher than we normally do. The Lup.ron shot went awesome as usual but the stim shot seemed to hurt worse than usual. I assumed it was because he was injecting it faster than the hubs does. It hurt bad enough that I had to put ice on it afterward. I’ve never done that. There was the beginnings of a knot soon after. I thought maybe it was the fluid under the skin. I tried to massage it but it was very sensitive. As the night progressed, it got worse. The knot got bigger, I could see a bruise surfacing, any touch hurt and it hurt to use my abs. I’m thinking we hit muscle.

Sleep was very uncomfortable and this morning I have a doozy of a bruise and a nice knot. I’ll spare you the picture today because I actually terrified another soon-to-be IVF’er with yesterday’s pics (sorry!) I’m sure it’ll feel better after a few days. We’ll just do shots on the left side for the next night or two. But for now, pants make sitting very painful even though I have them fully unzipped and unbuttoned. I wish naked was acceptable at work!

IVF CD10

Once again, I am way overdue for an update. And since it’s been so long, I have so much to post and I feel overwhelmed. I think this is going to be another bulleted post. It’s just easier to formulate my thoughts in short paragraphs.


* Last Thursday, I had an appointment with the RE. This was the appointment to determine if we were going to start stims. There were no cysts and I had 12 resting follicles (7 on the right and 5 on the left…is that good???) so I got the go ahead to start stims. Two ampules of Brav.elle and one ampule of Men.opur. I asked him if there was a way to avoid the evil Brav.elle burn (I was thinking maybe we could dilute it with more saline.) He suggested I load both of the meds with the 1cc of saline. I partly expected it to burn more since we had all three amps of meds to 1cc of saline. Good news though…only a slight burn! Woo hoo!!!


* The fear of IVF set in yesterday. The fear of shelling out $13,000 and not ending up with a baby scares me to the core. Up until this point, I’ve been fairly positive about it. This just has to work…but the reality is, it very well might not. I haven’t really felt like I was in the IVF process until starting stims. Now it’s getting very real. The fear, the anxiety, the nerves, the excitement…all slowly getting worse.

* Lup.ron Update: I <3 Lup.ron! Not necessary its effects on me, but I love the ease of this shot. I do have to admit, I have experienced very little of the Lup.ron side effects. I had mild, annoying headaches from the start of the BCP’s, once those were gone, the headaches have been minimal. One of the first nights of Lup.ron, I had my first ever hot flash. It was insane! Last week, I had my second hot flash. Equally as insane! I haven’t noticed much of the mood swings though. I have noticed I’m slightly bloated but I’m not sure if it’s just the gut or actually medically induced. This shot does leave me with a very interesting welt/rash 80% of the time (see pic at left.) The bruise is from a random shot during the first week. The shot itself didn’t hurt one bit but apparently the hubs hit a small blood vessel and we have bruising. The red mark below the bruise is the welt/rash I’m speaking of. It generally doesn’t show up until 20-30 minutes after the shot. It doesn’t hurt, itch or burn (the three questions the hubs and my mom have asked.) It goes away after an hour or so. I believe this is one of the side effects. It doesn’t worry me although it looks scary.


* Because my Lup.ron shots are so easy, I sucked it up and did one all by myself!!! This is a huuuuuuge accomplishment for me. I don’t even watch when the hubs does them for me. Seeing the needle enter the skin seriously freaks me out. Last week, I had a glass of wine and got the courage I needed. I was really surprised how difficult it was for the needle to penetrate the skin. It was the creepiest feeling. Gives me the willies thinking about it now. It was all over before I realized what was happening. I DID IT!!!

* Last Friday, I had the honor of meeting some of my Tweeps, Tracy (@kittygirltx), Holly (@ready2Bmom) and Erin (@WannaBeMom). It was even more awesome than I imagined! I’m sad that we didn’t take a picture before Tracy had to leave back to work. (L to R: Me, Erin and Holly) Guess we’ll have to do it again!!! As I sat with three miscarriage survivors, I was in awe of their amazing strength. I can’t even fathom their pain yet they can still encourage me. They are just amazing women and I am so grateful to have had the chance to meet them.

*I think I’m sick. The past four days I’ve had a nasty sore throat, sensitive ears and sinus headache. I’ve been avoiding meds since I’m on the IVF train but I don’t want it to get worse. (I went to the dr last Friday. I have double ear infections. I’m on antibiotics. Ick!)


* I’m in a complete blur lately. I can’t believe ER is right around the corner!!! I really just want to be in the moment. Every little bit leading up to a BFP will be cherished and I don’t want to look back on it all and wonder how I got here. Last night, CD9, was the first time I actually listened to my Circle + Bloom IVF medication series. I’m so mad that I missed so much. It was amazing and I really could’ve used it so much sooner.

* The bruising on my belly is ridiculous. I think it’s the aspirin that’s making it worse.  These are my two most recent bruises. The bottom one hurt soooo bad. The hubs went to give me my Lup.ron shot for the night and when he poked, it hurt pretty bad. He said it was really hard for the needle to go in and I guess it freaked him out because he pulled it out. Then he had to do it over. Argh! The second one hurt just as bad. I’m not sure if it was the first attempt or second that left the bruise. The top bruise is the freshest. So fun!


* After only four days of stims, the bloat and discomfort have fully set in. I just know its going to get worse before it gets better. My elastic waistband pants hurt. I’m getting ready to bust out some drawstring pants.


* I have my first stim check up tonight. I’ll be posting later to let you know how it looked.